The Greatest Question in History

“DO YOU WANT TO GET WELL?” – Jesus

Jesus said these words to a man who had been lame for 38 years at the pool of Bethesda (john 5). I think this is one of the most powerful questions ever. I have never heard this question until now. I have heard all this before; like Jesus knows everything you need and want.

But it was not until right now that I fully understand the significant of this question. Jesus want us to love him, he want us to see him as a friend and love him and ask for help. All he wants is us to say, “I want you to heal me.”

Because once we say that we are also saying that we love him and want true him and we want to be with him.

So with all my heart today I want to say

“I WANT YOU TO HEAL ME JESUS” – Me

With all my heart I want to say that and mean it. I want to love you Jesus. I want to be overflowing with love for you. I want to be so full of love that those who you bring into my life are just overwhelmed by the love that I have for you as it engulfs them.

I have always felt that I knew where God wanted to go with my life. But over the past year I have felt very directionless, but ever since the start of this year I have felt a direction a pull I have not felt for so long. I have felt so close to Jesus, and I can feel it growing. i just want to know him and to be with him, I want to spend time with him. I feel like I am starting to find my direction again. I cannot see where he wants me to go but I can feel the direction he is pulling me and I am not resisting any more. I want to run that way. But I am holding baggage that slows me down in my run towards him. Things from my past, regrets, shame, pain, wasted time, wasted love. I want to run to Jesus but the bags that I am holding are banging against my legs and my back slowing me down but I continue to hold on to them. I do not want to hold onto them anymore. I want to get rid of them. I want to cast them to the side. I want to throw them behind me and run unhindered to the cross, just like Jesus intended me to run to him. I want to ask…

“I WANT YOU TO HEAL ME JESUS, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU.
I NEED YOU TO HELP ME GET RID OF THE THINGS I AM HOLDING ON TO
THAT KEEP ME FROM YOU. I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO THROW THEM MYSELF, ONLY YOU CAN HELP ME.”

Learning through pain

Do you ever thing you are just starting to make progress in something and hten you get confident and then that confidence turns every so quietly suttely into arrogance and you go from moving forward to falling backward??

Well I had one of those and it is very humbling but I can tell you that from this experience I am learning so much.

Something I would rather not learn because of the pain but they are things that I need to learn. For instance that I can get very arrogant at time and when I do I turn off all outside resources of help or advice. When this happens I am in Super Joe mode, although I am strong I am nowhere near strong enough to carry my life myself. But I have gotten a better look at this over the past couple days.

Pain and failure are the time when I learn the most. Look at working out it is only when you are in pain that you really grow.